I still remember that moment as if it were yesterday. I’d passed the initial stages and was set to proceed to the next level. However, when the time came for me to articulate why this particular opportunity was important to me, and what things I would be able to bring to the situation to make it better, my mind went blank.

Like having the wrong key to the door, I felt unable to gain access to the right places to give insight into my motivations, skills, and experiences.

I felt immobilized. I tried to dig from my deepest sources if inspiration, but in that moment, the words wouldn’t come; at least not in the way I wanted them to.

Ultimately the conversation ended, and although did not feel fully understood, I’d hoped that they captured the essence.

I began to question myself, and doubt my abilities. I took some time to look inward to learn why I was so afraid, as well as seek outward support. Seeking support from loved ones really helped me to pause, do some reality testing, and ease up on myself.

We’re all entitled to off days.

The next day I received a call from someone who I’d spoken to months ago, with an offer to accept a different opportunity that would also enable me to continue to act out my mission.

It’ll Be Alright in the Morning

As a child I would hear my mother say that sometimes.

Although this particular event happened literally the next day, the “morning” she talked about can come at different times, and represent different things for each of us.

Celebrate with others when their mornings come, even as you wait for yours. It’s also important to remember that sometimes, it’s good things don’t work out.

Stay encouraged, stay committed. It’ll be alright in the morning.

Ubuntu,

From Aspiring Humanitarian, Relando Thompkins, MSW, LLMSW

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